Should I Give Up? Or Must Give Up?

今年的圣诞，可以说是过的最不开心的一年吧？她今天去clubbing,跟谁？当然是跟朋友。其实她一直没察觉到我不开心，当然，我们少联络。 今年的圣诞就是在白龄的snooker场过，12点一到，我就发给她跟她说圣诞节快乐，她回我了，但如果我没找话题的话我想我们会没话说吧？I try to control myself,but is hard…she’ll never know wat the feeling when she told me she went to clubbing. Maybe I no need to care about her,actually she dunno too. Like somebody is really make ourself unhappy,so??? I try to control. Maybe nw she already dance or felt high in the clubbing,but me? Just seat at here n coutinue my stupid blog. Who knows? My friends playing pool,me? No…maybe will play with them later. Nw feel so sad n down,only my friends know,but they know I din like they disturb me,so…..i’m just sit at here n typing. Feel tat I want to cry,but I’ll not do the stupid thing… Actually nw I’m doing the stupid things,haha… She stay at penang,I stay at taiping,we’re impossible together… And all the things she wear,all the things she do I feel tat I don’t like it. I think we just can be friend,forever friend… She not belong with me,and the place I borned also not belong with me…My whole life just can stay at taiping n alone… Somebody told me if din got lover still got friend,but all the couples are started from friend… I think I should give up ad,should? Or must?