Is Just Kidding...

昨天的我回来太平了，日子没改变，还是跟以往一样。昨天玲很早就发一封信息来说我变很多，其实也算是吧？从上个星期开始我对她淡很多，可能….因为我的心有另一个人的存在吧？我不知道…之后玲告诉我说她不想分，结果我只是说随便，要不要合都无所谓。唉…我不知道该说些什么？自从前天meet她之后没回过我信息，是有点失落，不过能怎样？姐姐说我贱，既然L都告诉我关于她的事而又有那么多人不爽她了为什么我还要喜欢她呢？我不知道…这2天只是一直在想为什么她没回我信息？我用了很多个自我安慰的借口来解决。可能她忙，可能没看到，可能电话没钱，可能不小心dlt了之类，不过我始终还是想了一个属于真正的事实，她不想回我，只在利用我在她寂寞的时候陪她。事实，真的有可能是这样。昨天我很傻，在手机里按了一封蛮长的信息，不过我想她应该没机会看到吧？也或许…根本就没有人会来看我的无聊blog...‘‘I think you’ll only text me when u feel lonely or need somebody to company you,rite? I remember i told you that I’m not kidding with you,is serious,but maybe is u kidding with me. Before this,I always kidding with you n said if I really like you then how? But you always think I’m just kidding or ignore me. Actually when the time I kidding,I already got the feeling with you. But…L told me that you always avail ppl,is it true? Should I trust him? Or trust you? I dunno. When I text you,you seldom reply. I dunno you’re busy or feel that I very annoyance… I really dunno what are you thinking... Or…you just really avail me to company you when you feel lonely.”